How alone feels

It has been a productive day and for that I am thankful. It’s hard to believe September is more than half over already although the cooler (less humid) weather is a welcome change from the hot summer temperatures and monsoon storms.

It’s a time of transition, a time of change.

Hard as it is to believe, two years ago my twin was alive, and I never felt alone or unwanted.

It’s hard to explain that connectedness.

Two years later I realize how much I took it for granted.

I know now how alone feels, how unwanted feels.

Coming to terms with those changes, finding acceptance and letting go of the anger and fear is the cause of much anxiety, uncertainty and restlessness today. It’s a battle and anyone who suggests otherwise has either never suffered loss and grief or is lying.