It’s Fall Break

It’s fall break.

I had such plans.

Until

The last Sunday in September, a week before fall break, when something inside me broke.

The act was inconsiderate.

But it communicated clearly to me that I do not belong and am unwanted.

And even though I believe it was unintentional, it still hurt.

It still hurts today.

It also made me more aware of how I respond to people, how I react. I don’t want anyone to feel that way because of something I do or say

I stayed home yesterday because I can’t imagine where I would be today if it happened again. It seemed too big of a risk to take.

I already know that was not the correct response

There are lots of changes in the upcoming month which means there are also lots of decisions to make.

I don’t know what happens next.

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