It’s fall break.
I had such plans.
The last Sunday in September, a week before fall break, when something inside me broke.
The act was inconsiderate.
But it communicated clearly to me that I do not belong and am unwanted.
And even though I believe it was unintentional, it still hurt.
It still hurts today.
It also made me more aware of how I respond to people, how I react. I don’t want anyone to feel that way because of something I do or say
I stayed home yesterday because I can’t imagine where I would be today if it happened again. It seemed too big of a risk to take.
I already know that was not the correct response
There are lots of changes in the upcoming month which means there are also lots of decisions to make.
I don’t know what happens next.