Wel it has been a crazy couple of last months…  First of all,  Income Taxe Season is over… it went really well… worked like crazy and long hours, but now it is over.. back to a normal, whatever that is, life…

Mom had emergency surgery last week… after spending 10 days not knowing, they finally operated and now she is home, weak and taking it slow, but is on the mend.  Having my brothers living 6 hours away always makes it harder for me to cope with things like this…

And on my personal side… things are awesome… Don and I are moving in together at the end of the summer.  The girls and I made the decision together and they are very cool and great with the move..they, like me and Don, can’t wait.  They say you meet your soulmate once in a lifetime,  well it took me a long time but I have found him… he is so amazing.   We are both very blessed to have found each other.

Well, that is it for now… will update more often sooooon

On this coolish Monday night….. Be Good

Here I am….  lots has happen in the last while… more deaths in January.. 1year memorial of Dad in January  and last week, I lost my Aunt Joyce to that f - - - ing Cancer. 

I totally hate January… 3 friends lost their fathers this again..  it is a very sad Month. 

I have been getting organise to start my first Tax Season with my sister.. we are officially opened 6 days a week as of Monday… Yikesss    a bit scary..

 Ok  let me go back a bit..  Christmas was hard but on my birthday morning I guess you can say… I reconnected with a work collegue and we have been together since…  Our relationship is incredible…. we are very much in love.. and it is wonderful.  I haven’t wrote about him and I because I wanted to keep some stuff to myself.. Anyway,  he took me away last weekend to Vermont for some R & R and shopping :)  It was perfect..it is weird that 7 years ago, both of us married, didn’t know how much we we’re made for each other…  We think a like,  we even bought the same Valentine card from diffferent stores…  anyway.. he is wonderfully amazing and brings the best out of me.

So Sunday, on our return from Vermont, Mom called to tell me about Aunty Joyce.  Her son and husband were hosting a tea party in her honour that afternoon.. I was not there for the funeral but made it to the tea.  My honey took my children with him to his daughter’s Science Fair at school… no question about his love for them too..

So yes, things are amazing.   the girls are healthy and happy and so am I.

Take care of you all and I promise to post more often and even put some pictures up.

That is all for now….. Be Good

It’s been a very busy fall so far and school is finishing on Mardi… yippppeeeee  and the Holiday Vacation the week after… about 3 weeks of nothing.

I have just realised that someone is reading my journal and never said anything… isn’t that interresting.  I would love you to comment when you do come and let me know here how you feel about everything.

Anyway,  I had a very romantic and fun weekend.  Relax en masse… and it was very much appreciated.  Life goes on.. and that is what I have done.

On this 400 more little lights to check evening… Be Good

My best friend Sandee, lost her cousin Tony, to Brain Cancer and she like most of her family, is devasted.  Sandee has been fighting her own Cancer Battles for 9 years.  I don’t have all the answers for her but I do know that Tony is not suffering anymore. 

Words can be consoling and hurtfull.. silence is even worst.. when things are not said, people feel that they are not worth investing a moment to acknowledge, thank, comfort and just plain make someone else feel better.   For Sandee, her knowing that people around her love her and tell her that they are there, is important.  I feel very helpless today.  I wish I had that magic wand that swooches all those “Bad” things away… but I don’t so instead I tell how sorry I am and she knows that no matter what she needs,  I am here.

I have been sick in bed since this weekend.  Yves came over to cheer me up this week, which he always seem to be doing lately, and he told me that life is what we make of it….  I have had lots of time to myself this week and I cannot say that I am happy about certain situations but I know that I am a good person and think of others way tooo much before my own.  This is why I am in such a heart ache and I must realise that what is done and it is over with.  I said what I needed to say and now it is not up to me anymore.   I cannot do more than I have done.  But in this case,  the silence is brutal.

On this sad and rain day….Be Good

Thank Godness I got my flu shot :s    I would be sick… I feel like a bus ran over me…  with everything else in my life, this was not necessary.

Both girls are also complaining of chest pain and sore throat…  What a Healthy Family we are…  went to school this morning and came back home to a surprise visit from my buddy Yves, with Orange Juice and a get well card.  He knows how to make me smile…. 

I am sitting with blankets on and still shivering,  what I need is … 

So on this really cold atchou night……Be Good

You know things are bad when you write a nice heartfelt email, save it on draft, fix it up and before you know it… your stupied laptop freaks out on you and send the receiver your letter in 6 copies included your rewrites…  How to impress someone…  I cannot start by explain how embarrassed and stupied I feel…  It has been a week from hell and more.. everything that needed to go wrong, went wrong..

Well whatever this email was suppose to present, I am sure the point has been lost with this situation..  How do I feel about this,  when down pick yourself up..dust yourself and pray that you don’t fall again.

That is it for now actually, it’s enough from me anyways for a while.. Be good

My girls are my life, my love, my future and I will protect them from all, forever.

I have to look towards them and see the strenght that I need today and tomorrow.  I look to them for smiles that are hard to come and hide my tears for I cannot see them hurting because I am.

They spent the day yesterday with their Grammy at the hotel downtown. And again had a blast with her.  Melanie won her soccer game this morning and was the star of the game. One goal and one assist.  I am very proud to be a mom today… they are my life, my love and my future.

On this very cold and broken day…. Be Good

An old friend called me this week and ask a really weird questions.  His daughter is doing some type of thesis or essay for college about knowing ourselves and it really made me think.

We both were baffled about the complexity of how we had to think about our answers….  I don’t know what the outcome of this questionnaire will be but it did stay in my mind.  Made me realize the qualities I have and the things I seem to need to work on.  It is funny to have this little project put on me at this time in my life, when in the last year, I have experience major sadness,  major changes in career, major dissapointment and facing and beating fears.  I wonder if asked all these questions last year, what the outcome would of been…  Ok now I am just babbling.

So on this almost winter time…Stay warm and Be Good

The sun is warm outside and the yard is calling me to collect all the million of leaves…  it will have to wait a wee bit…

I had a very nice weekend.  The girls where away at their fathers, giving me a very much deserve adult weekend of 2.

I have rarely met a person that makes me feel like a schoolgirl and that is how I feel right this minute.  It is a good feeling, one that you hope will never fade.. it is sooo important to never let go of all the good things in a relationship..  the sillyness,  the romantic and thoughtfullness, the sweet words that make you smile during the day or the ones that make you blush when you think about them,  the way a persons hands feels into yours..  all those things are important and sometimes, forgotten.  I am a firm beleiver that you give to others what you want them to give to you.  We are put unto this earth for a reason and mine is to make YOU happy. My reason to have crossed your path is not to replace anyone but to embrass you with all that you are.

On this sunny Sunday….Be Good

Have you ever wondered why there are people on this planet that love to hurt others…  that lie all the time… that cheat… that just don’t care about nothing else but themselves.. 

Dad’s burial went well.  It was hard to see my Aunt cry like that.. she is the oldest of the 5 children and burying 2 brothers at the same time,  she is now left with the baby of the family.  I said my peace with Dad and I now have closure.  It was a good day.

I am overwhelmed with my studies and homework.  Both, Mylene and I are anxious to finish.. 6 more weeks and then we are Certified Taxe Specialists..

My relationship with John is going so amazing.  We went out for dinner with our kids.  The evening was perfect.  The 3 kids got along really well.  His son is so cute and polite and just very friendly.  We had them over for dinner this weekend and… still the same, so I am thinking that he is always like this.  The girls love John, thinks he is soo sweet and funny and can’t wait for other occasions that we will be together.  It was funny to see Val with the son.. she giggled the whole first time meeting him.  He is 14 and an athlete. 

This weekend, the girls are away at their dad’s.  Mike is competing this weekend and he asked if I could come…. How can I say no to that… so daytime, the 3 of us, the evening, only 2 allowed ;)  not sure what is on the agenda, but I am sure that it will be awesome and romantic….

Well on this very rainy October night….Be Good